He didn't use the limiter. People had mentioned in passing that to not do so was ill-advised, especially in this world where pain registered in a very real and very vivid way. On the other hand, the more pain that was blocked, the more the avatar would stagger to compensate. Both situations were less than ideal.
As his body wracked with pain, his thoughts patched together into tangents, things about how he came to this point and what drove him there, about how his mother might react if she knew. The pain burned like a wildfire, spreading rampant as his consciousness broadened and became more aware. The more he woke up from the mental fog, the more pain seeped into his clarity.
A normal man might have screamed.
Jin bit his lip, craning his neck just a bit to stave off the sheer ecstasy mixed with agony that threatened to growl unbidden from his lips. The Hunter had hunted the ultimate prey- himself. He'd always dreamed about how he might do it, if he ever decided to end his own life.
I suppose I should cross 'jump from a tall building' off the list of prospects...
His face was jarred, nose out of position and fractured in several places from the impact. Blood streamed down from his nasal passages and he breathed through his mouth, despite the burning. It was the only real way, in that situation, to continue getting air to his lungs. Then, she came into his line of sight.
You've made something so pretty....a form of art I couldn't have created in my own imagination...
"You... really ought to get... more creative... then," he huffed between ragged breaths as she touched his face, his chest, various parts of his body that were already reeling. The explosions of agony that followed caused him to gasp, breathless, fighting for every ounce of air that he could gulp down.
He felt it when she licked at his cheek, and felt the smearing of blood and saliva as she took his viscera in. More than that, he could feel the curse as it crept into her body, even if she failed to notice.
Jin could feel it now. The things she did not say, but that could no longer hide. The pain she drew into herself, from him. It became a loop, hyperconductive as he drank in his own suffering, from what she thought to steal.
Shall I heal you? she asked. Like some kind of heretical angel, she straddled his broken body and dangled the promise of catharsis over him. Jin's virulent gaze remained unwavering as his hands shakily rose from his sides, finding purchase on either of her arms.
"Unnecessary," he rasped brutally, his focus now singular as he kept her at arm's length in a vicegrip. Already she had come to close, and already she had attempted to plant strange thoughts and emotions into his mind. His body would forever remain stained with the memory of a mouth that should never have been allowed so close.
As he held her away with shaking, yet I inhumanly strong arms, the pain in his body coalesced. It shuddered along a telltale path, following his arteries to deliver blood from the heart to other cells. Infused with a heat unlike any fire, the curse inflicted on his body began to reshape it at the cellular level. Shattered bone slowly started to pull itself together, knitted by blood that coagulated and hardened to bind the shards. Meat and sinew fused back together, unholy energy shaping them into a proper form. He could feel the absurd levels of sensation, beyond anything a normal human brain ought be able to comprehend, and once more he recalled the words of his instructor.
"...your brain can't process that kind of force..."
Who's brain can't? He could feel himself smiling unbidden, practically laughing in the face of the man who had shattered a younger Theo's dreams.
I must be built differently, then.
Every moment that passed, his body was rebuilding itself.
Every moment that passed, the pain grew even more immense.
Jin's grip on the woman's arms grew wild, his nails biting deep into flesh. As he felt the ribcage setting properly in his torso, he took that precise opportunity to cast her aside.
"You can look," he
told her,
"but touch me again, and you can experience that all over, for yourself this time."
Jin slowly stood, his equilibrium adapting to all of the sudden, jarring changes.
The pain lingered. He rested an arm on the sheathe of his weapon.
"You should be more careful," he warned,
"about bloodbourne pathogens."
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